8.7.2011

New continues her story... The Eagle's unprovoked negative attack is disgraceful. His outburst is selfish and obviously timed to cause maximum damage to his partner's expectations for the evening. She should be furious! The cutlery should be immediately removed from the kitchen before it starts to fly. But, in the moment of crisis, a lucidity floods her mind. The world slows down, and she is able to see the passage of time as an expansive field that they float above. She takes a deep breath and surveys the landscape for what seems like hours but on Earth two seconds have passed. The Eagle's insults and hateful intentions now look like a gentle stream flowing past her. She can allow this kind of outburst as no more than a childish tantrum. He is so obviously unable to see the same emotional landscape and how vulnerable this attack has left him. She knows intuitively that she will not allow him to apologize and claim responsibility for this behavior without cost. But, however much in control she now finds herself, what concerns her is not the sport of capturing his pride; though that will be fun for weeks. What grabs her immediate attention, in the seconds that follow his shouting, is that through his rupture she has smelled the infection spreading deep inside her partner's emotional fabric. She bursts into tears; now knowing the source of his pain. She weighs her hopes for their relationship against having to face the inevitable angry personal attacks that will be provoked if she pushes him to heal. But she feels she has already survived a major surprise attack and really, she could tolerate much more sh!t flying, as long as she could assure herself that in the end he would be healthy and the thorn would be removed from his claw.

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